DEAR TINY DIARY-some more about my little life

i juz a simple little girl on my way to catch my dream to be a prefect human as can the others be..juz a simple tiny diaries that i started to type on to tell about what im really felt before..human have thier own feeling that need to spread off..im a little girl here need to be loved n loved...im already be loved in the other word im taken..i've no idea what i fell about him n im not sure my feeling are actually for him or not.days by days i keep thingking why my feeling like this after we have having 5 years relationship.i've cheat myself n himself.he was a very awesome boy that i can't make his sad.but totally not 100% my feeling is for him.i dint know y and i need to discover about my feeling more n more to make this situation become positive.we have been dreaming something extraordinary things together but im not sure it will come true..dear tiny diaries the people change n they also will make keep up.a normal person like me juz on behave of this world.i wondering when i will find exactly my real life n my real position in thiz wrold.